Above is a little 4x6 study I did today entitled "Spring Chickens" - about an hour total. It was all I
could manage today.
I seem to be drifting in a sea of indecision lately. There are things I really want to
paint, but I'm not good enough at them yet to do anything serious, and I am tired to death of doing so-so, ho-hum, yawn, average works. Sometimes I want to scream "no more lousy art!" (hey, would that work?)
I think we probably must go through these kind of experiences. Maybe it is a bit like pruning our apple tree-
too many branches going too many different directions dilute the resources of the tree - better to cut it back and direct the growth in one direction. I know all this in my head, but it is frustrating to feel like I'm stuck
spinning my wheels and going nowhere fast. There are commitments and opportunities looming, but what I really want to do is just shut the door to it all and get by myself and paint. Some of those things I HAVE to do, and some I SHOULD do (there's that whole making money thing), so I can't ignore them even though I'd like to.
Right now, I think it'd be great if I could disappear for about 2 years, and come back, hopefully a better artist.